Scion of Silence

no thing
nothing
not one thing
in my way
except
my pride....unreal
my work...unrecognized
my love...unrequited
my life....under done
my ignorance....unbelievable
blatant in bold bravado
false
I crave the still knowledge
of my growing truth

hearing
knowing
not going
bowing to others
putting it off
until I do not recognize
the me I have allowed
myself to become

the path to me
needs clearing
overgrown.....forgotten
somehow
calling me so loudly now
my ears ache
my heart follows
I ache
for my self
how sad
I crave the self
my self

I
answer
today.....

sorry, silence....I dishonored you
making you scream beyond your own
comfort
so that I will comfort myself
how humble you are
how I need to revive my own
humble honor
of me
forgive me
as I forgive myself
in the stillness of your wisdom

I caused silence to SCREAM.....
a crime against nature
a crime against my own needs
a crime I have already served time
for
as I have been lost and lonely
for myself

just like a mama....putting her scions
first
she yelled for me to come home
before the monsters came out
before I can not find my way
as the day wears old
feed my soul, mama
hold me tight
in this dark night
of my pastel soul, in need of
a natural band aid
fix my boo boos
kiss my head
make it all better...
mama silence

I am a scion of silence
let me remember this
let me honor this
mama is calling me home
I must answer
today