Lines of Dreams.....Drawn

She drew the world she knew
and she will again, draw it
As it unfolds and unfurls in front of her
As she wishes it to spread its wings
this time around

She will draw sunsets
and the rise as well
She will draw the dreams that dwell
inside her heart, until now....
unspoken

In charcoal or
Pastels and pencils
Shadows and light
Mourning.....knight
Arcs and angles
Angels and demons
Barns still standing in rebellious disrepair
Birds and butterflies traveling away
or towards......
suspended in the air

Eyes smiling
Eyes crying
Eyes...loving
Eyes that see dreams unfurl

Silent song sung onto the open space...
of the open book
Ready and waiting
and.....
In the suspended moment as she takes up her tool
...................just as her hand rests
upon the paper
The dreams in her heart line up
to become the one chosen
to be
drawn into
reality

For lines of dreams are drawn in
lines on paper waiting......
as open space, for
possibilities

Head and Heart Games

 

 

 

Love can be a long lament

Unrequited and unseen, un-felt

Loving when you are not loved back

A bullet train approaching a tampered track

No idea you are about to derail

In the coming wake of a bitter betrayal

Perhaps you betrayed your own destiny

Tried to be some one you could never be

 

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The head games, the deliberating

The heart games, the defibrillating

The endless cycle of endless crying

When was it that you stopped trying

 

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Lonely in love, lonely in life

The piercing pain of the red glowing knife

Cutting and cauterizing in one incision

Excising your soul with pensive precision

The task for a lover living lonely

Is to discover the way that only

He can go to heal the lamentations

Long living in his soul's foundation

365 Degrees

Tell me I may not retrace
my steps and I am in a rapid race
to prove you wrong
Even though we both feel we are right
In our opposition we will witness the light
shining on each of our ways to be true
I can only be me, you are here to be.... you
 
365 degrees
In spiraling arcs surrounding me
I can visit the roots of the trees
and traverse a multiplex of  dimensions
My mind has birthed many inventions
As I dismantle the walls you have built
around my life with your own mounting guilt

Tell me I have to be like you
and I am off in a rapid race to pursue
The many ways in which I never will be
as you are.....it is not my destiny
But yours....to fulfill
Take up your own ink upon your own quill
I shall pen my own stillness
As I battle my thought's shrillness
The result will be lines on a page
Not to upset or enrage
Any one, or any thing, or any where
Tis me traveling the spinning arcs in the free air
that I breath
Let us let go, and in the reprieve
Realize we both now know,  what we once believed
We may move in a meander of 365 degrees
Of endless arcs of  invented possibilities
To be our selves each and every now
And we are the only ones to teach ourselves how

When in orbit our arcs do intersect
Let us show mutual peaceful respect
For our differences and our similarities
For our dark days and our clarities
You be you, I'll be me
365 degrees of  spiraled sacred geometry

the sacred soft and the holy hard

it's a woman's nature to be cunningly crafty
fishing answers outta you guys is like pullin taffy
long and slow and yes, sometimes sticky sweet
perhaps we get off on our natural desire to compete

the nature of the game tween a woman and a man
as tough as trying to set sail on dry land
all we  need is the touch of your hand
and our skirts fly up in a heavenly handstand

why do you make us so confused and crazy?
when we know your love for us is innately lazy
you can't give us what we really need to be livin
so why do we want so bad what you are sorta givin'?

it's the nature of this lifetime game
to pursue the very thing that makes us insane
the brush of a whiskered rugged face
moving in close on our polished painted grace

is it the scared soft warming the holy hard
that keeps us playing, reaching for another card
knowing full well in the end, you'll  win it all
us, on the floor on our knees in a cat like crawl

gambling with hearts and messin with minds
it's all part of the seductive bump and grind
that keeps us playin and  swingin' our love guns
your pistols fully loaded, our lasers on stun

been thinking bout layin down men for a while
folding my cards and ending the beguile
I've heard tales of the grace and beauty of lady luck
perhaps my future is full of flannel shirts and pick up trucks

one never knows what a gambler will find
when she heals her heart and closes her mind
to the rigors and rules of society
after all...it's all about souls and sacred synergy

pushing back from the table of gamblers
off to the dirt roads and the fellow ramblers
I will meet on my wild woman wanderings
out where my life intersects with my ponderings

Our Inner Iconoclasts

Tangled threads of grand proportion

Where is the promised devotion

The "I will love you forever"

No one warned us of the inclement weather

Lurking at each and every bend

of the river, smooth as the finest imported glass

Or wild and rapid, no way to pass

The water rises

In the cycle of our endless compromises

Silent now, no communication

Our love knew the devolution

of throats going still and dry

Of the joy jumping off the cliff.... collective suicide

Attempting to recapture the pure painted past

Memories recalled to silence our inner iconoclasts

In the desire to revive

A love once so very alive

Now gasping for breath with its head hung low

Our duet must now be sung...solo

Entangled, once intertwined

We have taken bare the vine

Forever was not real for us

But, darling, we were the impetus

The parents of beauty grandly birthed

The conception of a diamond crushed to great worth

 

I will remove from my finger the sacred one

I hold it to the sun, as a laser gun

The heat will burn away the threads that hold us

Opening our lives to behold us....

Grateful

Graceful

Knowing for the first time, at long last

The healed present and the gifted past

a-wandering

 

Wandering the woods, the waves, the world
Lost I am not
Feed me, shelter me, help me?
No, thank you
I do not require the assistance
For I wander of the call of my feet
to the path
The call of my craft to the Sea
The siren song of the world awakens
my soul to set a-wandering
One footprint, one heartprint after another
Be them preserved in sand, mud, dust or snow
for moments or millennia
The traces of my travels along the
ridges and the rises
Within the valleys and through the veils
thin and the walls high and deep
All who wander are not lost
All who wander are not homeless
I wander because of the wood, the waves, the world
For I know them as my home

No Net

Walk the line
Turn back time
Love sublime
Now tainted, sour
Your guilt is scoured
Raw and bleeding
As you feel your soul retreating
You thought love was growing
Instead a heavy line you're towing
A line pulling a heart ever broken
Your ears will hear no justice spoken
Paying the price in precious gold
Can't buy back the soul you sold

In the indulge of your darkened desires
The line you walk becomes a high wire
Restless, knowing no peace
Sleep until the nightmares cease
Take your time
Step down off the line
Feed your soul, starving
What happened to you, Prince Charming?
Barely alive in your life half full
Open the cage, let go the fool

Mother's Milk....Earth Day 2014

Mother's milk spilled over the table....
onto the floor
The long told fairy tale
has become a daunting chore
to tell
As we are dying collectively
On our way in a hand basket to hell
We rape and pillage, and fail to see
The fears of our mama, her eyes swell
with rivers of drying dreams
River death beds drying
Fish choking in the streams
Air only suitable for those dying
Living half alive, concocting endless schemes

Life on a dying planet
We must change the tale's end
We have so much power, damn it
Rekindle the desire to fight and defend
Our collective mother and the womb
we were all shot out of
We all recall the beauty of the fleshy room
Suspended in her liquid love
Yet, when she offers the milk from her breast
We push it aside for chemical reactions
Saying science and greed and distortion is best
As we disregard the nature of the contractions
Of our mother who lives aching and alone
She gave us life....innate wisdom and joy
We never stop by or call, silent is her phone
Time to be good little girls and boys
And love up the one who held us inside her
The pristine places where the oceans meet the land
Cry out for healing, time to revive her
Reach out to your mama, extend your hand

High Tide

 

 

 

Harbor....haven

Open your self to me

Let me anchor myself

inside your gentle calm surfaced station

Hold me in the face of the storm

approaching

Let me lean into port

Take me deep into the safety

of your arms. your soul, your body

Greet me with your grace on my return

from the Sea

I will translate my tales to you

as I am nestled and docked

to you

Tell you, I will of the sea monsters I battled

and the battle of my own human

condition

And the days the wind was mild

And the nights she threw me around

so wickedly wild she almost

split me in two

I will tell you of the tides...turning

and the tides tempering

All within mere moments of each other

Yes, the Sea is my maiden

You, are my safe haven, my love

my welcoming place of gentle return

The calm after the many storms of

a life lived on high tide

Magic, Motion and Mystery

 

 

 

Somewhere down the road it will occur to you

We were magic, motion and mystery

Melded perfectly and precisely what we were

intended to be

We conjured it and made it so

You opened your fearful fingers and let me go

And here I am

Down the road realizing you are afraid of

magic, motion and mystery perfectly melded

And I am not

singing our sea songs

Take me far on your waves and re-weave
me
When the rocky world does indeed deceive
me
Wet my fibers and revive
me
Knit me back together...alive,
me
The salt air hangs heavy round
me
The sun French kissing the horizon astounds
me
The light show of the planets and stars calms
me
I am free here, the dry world can not harm
me
Oh, mighty Goddess Sea, my song you sing
me
I can never repay the peace you bring
me
And I know you shall never expect
me
To recompense you as your siren call collects
me
From the dry land storm so brutal, it beats
me
For we gift each other, you do complete
me
And I, you.... as you again greet
me
For you recall me as the whale
me
Who swam and played and prevailed,
me
Inside you, Sea, you held on 
to me
So close... when I sang you your song,
so free!
In great, humble gratitude I return to my
Sea
Me
Us
We
Singing our Sea songs in humbled Harmony

Fan Clubbed

 

 

 

She don't want friends
She wants fans
And fanfares that know no end
From divine wandering heavenly bands
of angels on gilded whispering wing
Who flutter above her holiness
Tethered to the twisted truth she sings
She collects souls to quell her loneliness

Never listening to one damn thing
Others share, it's all about her
You, she's locked in the caged ring
Soon you will undoubtedly concur

You, the only fan of a falling star
No longer able to carry her own picture
From your self, so very far
She is your soul's constrictor

Careful who you idolize
There is a deep daunting danger
In the spin of her color wheel eyes
She is a matter re-arranger
She seems to have you hypnotized
To yourself you shall become a stranger

Rearranging what matters to you
She steals the life you know
You...standing alone, aptly cast as the fool
She...moved on, collecting another soul

She will win the golden statue again
You, supporting actor, have lost
You gave into your deepest sin
She took you for free, you paid the cost

Heavy Metal....for John Sutter

What price gold?
Oh....the sacrifice to hold
the precious piece in my possession
The introduction to my buried obsession
More, more, quench my thirst
Take, I can take if I find it first
Courting my overwhelming greed
My steps encumbered, know the impede
Of my ever building lecherous lust
My own instincts I no longer trust
What price this magic from the river bed
Never have I known my life so dead
Rewind and turn back time's hands
I would, returning to my simple plans
If only I had never bent down
To the call of the demon drowning in the ground
In the deepest parts of the depths of me
I curse the day I discovered alchemy
The current delivered me a life unsettled
Too costly to carry, this heavy metal

Lifelines

Love lives long though lifetimes
Through lifelines
How long have I loved you?
So long.....
Too long?

Lines of love...the lineage of two hearts
Beating because of the other
Drumming in rhythm
Pulsing in tandem
Ley lines lingering long within the planet
Sacred lines like the ones on my open palm
that predicted your coming....
again
Lines, invisible, laid out between us....
Through the time and trails we have traveled...
 together
They have intertwined us

Lay, here, with me....love
Let us live this life, too.......
intertwined
It is our destiny
The invisible lines live between us

Our lifetime lifelines
connect us

HERstory

Our bodies we reject
The truth we neglect
Until the mystery of a magic bullet
Allows us to hope for all we could always intuit
  "I may just may be a carrier of beauty"
And...we bravely begin to believe
What was taken away by thought thieves
We are elegant!
Brazen, strong and defiant !
We shall slay society's untrue giant
It matters not if others see it
It is up to us to simply be it
By nature of our birth
We are goddesses gliding o'er this earth
Gaze into the mirror on the wall
We are not nothing, we are all

 

Delivering the Day

The stars drift off to sweet slumber
The fire sun, yawning.... revives her slow rise
Breaking the waiting horizon
Delivering the day
What does the sun signal to you
As she stretches and slides across the sky
That same sky the stars earlier.... occupied

A gift, the day rise
Ripe and plump with possibilities
Antiquated and angling and aligning
The ancient arc of an orb
we endlessly orbit, worshiping her
cadence, her brilliance
Her heat, her light, her existence

Round and Round
Season to Season
Hour to Hour
Now to Now

Blue, the bounty of the sky....blue, my day dreams
White the wispy clouds...white, my dawning desire
Orange fire ball sun....orange, my burning wisdom
The day has been delivered upon the steps of my waking heart
It is now my honor to live this day.....
aware

In the Leaving

Leave me
Find you
Relationship retired
Heart's desire
Will revive
Living alive
Separate space
Running the human race
Crossing the line
Melding the divine
With the mundane
Healed of disdain
On our way
To our enlightened day
Found in the leaving

Me.....Tree

Rooted deep down within the moist and pungent

dermis of Goddess Gaia

My life lines stretching, searching

Tendrils of my time here

Blissfully blinded at first

Eyes forced wide open in the tumble of life

In the bitter realities of such an unreal

place

Yet, my roots reach and dive to depths

untouched by time or tumbles

My mama's heart beat pulsing also through

my own veins

Her resounding lub dub, lub dub, lub dub

my waking song, and my lullaby

The sacred soil nourishes my branches

Welcoming the birth of the long gestating

green glory 

My leaves sway

in the breathy breezes of a

slow summer day

Me.....Tree

She....We....Rooted

Sparking

 

 

Born in the beautiful burn

The flames of freedom

Leaping

Flicking fire feeding

our deepest desire

Burned away, the past, the pain

Rising of the ashes

Us....in love.....forged in the fire

of our freedom

Fueled by the touch of you

Fingers like flames sparking my flesh

aware, alive, awake

memories meeting

Singing with the soil and stone
Today
I am takin' the long way
home

Heartache, head aches
Healing now
You, my dear, have taught me how
To honor what seemed to be mistakes

It was never
a wrong way
Taking the long way
Only enhanced our endeavor

Enjoy the long way as the road winds
Through the valleys, over the hills
Past the place where our iron wills
Bring us back to our memories..... intertwined

We went long
We went real
Penned in peace..... we reveal
the lyrics of our own song

The truth..... we loved and lived
in ways pure
Of this we are certainly sure
We have healed, we forgive

Out here, in the winding and the wander
are 2 humbled souls
Etched......upon our heart's ancient scrolls
Are memories meeting on the way, longer
hg

Southern Comfort

Southern sultry comfort
The blue of the summer sky
Breezes heavy and humid
Enveloping us, enchanting us

The spark of our eye's kindling
Caught us unaware
The flame burst wide and deep
Penetrating the heavy night already steamy
In a flash we were lost inside the lust of love
And freely found in our union

Did you say you love me?
I thought I heard it
Perhaps I dreamed it
But I felt it
I saw it in your gazes
I knew it in the taste of us blended
I sang it in my mind in the breaking morn
before you stirred
awake
beside me

Lost and found
Me and you
Us
Southern Comfort

love at first breath

golden glance
heralded happenstance
rising of the magical moon
the dizziness of the sudden swoon

alive at first shared breath

inspiration deep
the swoon
realized in the steep
of the golden goddess moon

exhalation slow
birthing the hope in their lungs
so tight
love taught them how to let it all go
deep in the depths of their melded night

love at first breath
a chorus of inspiration
loneliness met its long coming death
love grew.....in glorious moon lit exhalation

Rainmaker

The rain's rhythmic refrain
Washing aware my tin heart
Each tap on the tin taking my pain
Transforming it into a brand new start

I lie awake humming in harmony to the tapping
I focus on the face of the rainmaker
I am instantly freed from time's trappings
As you heal me.....pain taker

Rolling in the dirt, now mud
In the open sharing our love
My heart thunders and pounds in repeating thuds
As the rainmaker loves me from above

Drop upon me, lover
Make me wet and wild with desire
Wash me away to that place no other
lover can send me....
Warm me by the flames of your inner fire

Rainmaker
Pain taker
Thunder shaker
Love maker
Love me aware

Separation Anxiety

 

Flesh and bone

Hearth and home

Fire needs stoking

In your absence I am choking

The smoke meets my lungs so tight

Alone I am, in the deep dark night

Watering.... my smoke screened eyes

When you are gone, my head tells me lies

 

Left here, in the space you created

Loneliness...alive, unabated

In my ears, the sound of the sea

Lapping against the shoreline, it does not comfort me

Walking alone along the beach

Hoping you feel my hand in her reach

To you

As I stare at the rough and rocky shore

I am so very glad you only went to the store
 

Solitary Refinement

Forest fire
Deepest desire
Slowly decreased
The passion, deceased
Once lovers, now friends
When the longing ends
We find ourselves alone at home
Our aching souls began to roam

A sad reality
Uneasy loneliness eating away at me
Attempting to fill the vacancy of the void
That grew between us, so wide
It gnawed, as my uneasy empty belly growled
The words found my lips and were spoken out loud
In your grace you heard me
Never attempting to deter me
Soon I found myself, alone but not lonely
Resting near the fire, the flames leaping for me....only
No longer alone in my own home
The winding roads of dirt... mine to roam

Solitary refinement
Gentle and grateful confinement
The gift you granted to me
When you gave me the space to simply be
My soul friend of epic proportion
Our love knows no distortion
We revived our crystal clarity
There are no have to-s or supposed to be-s
Just the extreme and stellar beauty
of
You and Me

1 x 1

 

 

 

When I discover myself broken

Stepped on by strangers or lovers

Gotta glue myself back together with truths spoken

Silently sung to my soul under the covers

Late in the dark of night

As I reckon the cost

As I restore my inner sight

As I revive the self love lost

 

Reclamation of my battered soul

No need to lay it out before them all

Over pleasing surely takes its toll

Harder and tougher to rise after each fall

So, today I stop falling down to the ground

For others who won't pick themselves up

There are deep truths in the love I have found

Living for me now.....it's been long enough

 

I pen a promise to myself this day

To reawaken my soul's secret desires

Rising, getting out of my own way

Stoking my solar plexus fires

Certain of nothing, motivated by this

Standing to meet the light as she reveals my path

One very alive bead on my abacus

One times One is One....you do math