the same deep dream



"and I, at sunrise"

Waking to the
breaking
dawn
of a day I knew would one day
come
And here, it is, this day's
sun
Rising whether I am prepared
or not
In all the remembering I never
forgot
That this excursion was always
about Dan
And, with the gentle guidance of
this gentle man
I morphed into the reality of  me
My inner truth rose in synergy
with his
Today my heart drips bittersweet
bliss
As I turn to offer this blog a
goodbye kiss
From grateful lips presenting younger
And a soul, wiser, freed of its deep
hunger
All because a music man
Allowed his purpose...his lifetime plan
To sing and write and travel the land
Often times with empty hands
And a heart longing to belong
To someone on the roads he walked along

A true friend of his told me once
"Dan did not do human well"
I understood the words, I know he was under
a spell
Cast upon all of us who wish to love in ways so pure
We often need to find an outlet to reassure
ourselves that we can live here on this planet
bright
As we, armed with this pure love..... enter the fight
To keep the planet perpetually spinning
Unsure why it is so important to always be winning
When the goal.....
we know
Is to live in the spaces between the illuminating white
and the peace of the veil of  the darkest night
If you seek me
You shall find me
(where you also shall find yourself)
Blooming in the spaces between
For we are all players in the same deep dream

invisible grace

truth, lies
alibis
traveling at the speed of light
towards another endless plight
give up the ghost, lay down your sword
tilting at windmills bestows no reward

truth, lies
blackening skies
a gypsy soul would prophesy:

 

"you must fast run away

no more walking life this way

walking into the same wall

no one to lift you after the hard fall

secrets are dangerous to keep

you have been awakened from your soul sleep

stand up and open the door

close it behind you, enter no more"

truth, lies
tears of tempers burning your eyes
we will mend it together
once you sever your soul tether
you will find that you can fly
alongside me in the safe blue skies
lifted upon the invisible grace of the gales
no need to worry if your chute fails
winged ones need no protection from the ground
for once aloft their souls have found
the freedom they had been seeking
while trapped in the mud of secret keeping

truth flies
upon the air waves of our perfect sky
dipping and diving
loving life.....thriving
spread your wings NOW, allow the release
my sweet dove of patience and peace
parachutes, we need them not
your soul knows this, it just forgot
enter the messenger who loves you.....me
to remind you that we share the same soul story

lifetimes long

Seeing the truth again

Feeling the deep vibrations

between us

Wanting to be wanted

Knowing we must not go there.....

again

 

Do we ever fully let go of love?

It lives dormant in the recesses of our brains

Sleeping, yet so very awake in our

limbic systems

Like it was only yesterday

As if I could stretch out my arms, and embrace

you

Know you in the secret and sublime way I do

It was so far back now, we could never go back....

again

 

So, forward we advance

Finding rare retreat

As for moments in time we breathe

the same air

We sing the same songs

We laugh the same laugh

For moments brief

And lifetimes long

For no matter where my feet find the

flow

I know I will see you....again

river of strolls

Tear down the walls

Tear them down

Down to the ground

We will burn the wood in a ceremonial pyre

Warm yourself beside the flames of my desire

 

Tear down the fears, cold as ice

The ones that keep you running in your dreams

all night

Fill the space that remains with gentle peace

Let the lifetime of running in place cease

 

Tear down the guilt, the anxiety of the shame

Let yourself know my love as sweet rain

Falling softly from my heart here, up high

Let the music of your long held breath

out in a slow sung sigh

 

The tasks of your tortured time have taken their toll

The paths of our tender time will create a river of strolls

Let the river show us the paths we are to travel

Walk them with me, your chains we will unravel

Until you find yourself fully free

Take my hand, darling.....walk with me

We will walk until your conscience stills

To the soundtrack of the crickets and the whippoorwills

 

Tears of joy travel down your fair face

Allow the humble healing, gather up the grace

As your fortresses fall, gently put asunder

Walk with me in the sun, the rain, the roaring thunder

 

Tear down the walls

Tear them down

Down to the ground

We will burn the wood in a ceremonial pyre

As we bid farewell to the past and

sing hello to our desires

upon the place...for joe and me

Summer song
Shadows lay long
upon the place our souls intersect
Preparing now, to spilt apart..... In retrospect
We did it true
Me and you

We did it with deepest respect
In honor and grace I gently genuflect
I bow to the present, the future. the past
For any shadow here now is cast
As respite from our sister sun
As our shadows become two from one
Shining bright, she lights our separate ways
And, as we move past our nights, our days
Shared
We know we cared
On soul levels so honoring and deep
Your love, I shall forever keep
So close inside my humbled heart
As I turn to meet my new start
And you turn, too
To greet the passion reawakened in you

Standing still now, for moments of perfect peace
We watch the color story of the changing leaves
Paint a portrait of our lives as we walk away
Hang, it will, on the wall in grateful display
For free we are to move about the land
In our final turn, let go my trembling hand
Thank you, sweet and gentle man

Perhaps we did not want to go
But we had to allow what we both know
Summer song
Shadows lay long
upon the place our souls say goodbye
Remember me as you explore the seasons of the sky

Linear Liaisons

After all, they are only words
They are  only ourselves......revealed
Dreams, being birthed
Dreams, dying
Plans and proposals
Pieces and wholes
Deep wells we dive down into
Mountains we climb for the glorious view

Linear liaisons, strewn as pearls, precious
Placed gently, adorning the hearts of lovers
Poetry passed down as heirlooms
Priceless treasures, these words are....
after all

They are only words
Language rolling off the tongue
Landing within the labyrinth of eager ears
Setting to beating our lust
or
Breaking apart our trust

Powerful, these words
Spoken, long labored silence broken
Written, sweet sonnets to that certain someone
Thoughts, shared  freely or staunchly guarded
Fears.....crushing us, chasing us

Healing or hurtful
Choose them....wisely
They will meet their mark
and be felt
Magical, mystical vibrations they are
Lifting us high
or
Knocking us down, so low

Choose wisely

Sleeping Soul

Scarecrow, locked within the tree
Awakening the fear sleeping deep in me
You make me feel I am only full
Of the straw on which the crows do pull
Silently taunting my inner core
My thoughts, my substance, I was fine before
You stared me down
And I fell to the ground
Cowering in your dark shadow
Painted frown, frozen, how had you
known that I was running from my deepest self
You hanging..... judging life, in and of yourself

Yourself.....straw and scraps and useless stuff
I feel the same, yet your fate I must rebuff
Crows, come, feed on my straw
Peck away at society's silent law 
The one that states we must hang in waiting
For a day far off, I end my hesitating
Cut the tether that confines me at my center
In my own tree, I have been a renter
I choose a new path, end my endless hanging round
I walk into my future, feet reclaiming my solid ground

Dan's Lore

Do not mourn
In my demise
Please, I want you to realize
Mine was a life
Lived fully

I sang from mountainous peaks
I sang love songs to my siren sea
I loved ladies and respected men
I reminded you to honor the now, the then

Rejoice that I was here
That I found you all in my rear view mirror
After I drove off into my sun's setting
And you...sang myself to me, in your melodic vetting

So, please no mourning
Instead, embrace the joyful knowing
That you are fully alive
As I was. Live, love, thrive!

Sing and love and learn
As the seasons and the cycles turn
Find yourself, also turning
Wiser, lighter; and in your learning
Write you own songs, find your own voice
It's your life, you are gifted with choice

I chose life at the fork in the road
I wrote of my travels so they could be told
From my deep soul to the depths of yours
Life affirming and loving lore
Is what I gave as a gift to the world
Until the day my Icarus like wings unfurled
And I was lifted away and high
Today, I whisper to you all..... "goodbye"

Say hello to your own inner wisdom
Use the crystal knowledge of your life as a prism
Shine into the world your own gentle warnings
And, please, rejoice..... let go the mourning

Daysong...for Charlotte

Morning
Breaks
Body
Wakes
Whisper
Rise
Sleepy
Eyes

Orb

Brilliant

Grand....

Resilient

Relieving

Dark

Blazing

Arc

Morning

Brings

Dreams

Dawning

Stretching

Yawning

Day's

Delivery

Knight-like

Chivalry

Possibilities
Vast
Shadows
Cast
Moving
Daylong
Silent
Daysong

Morning

Here

Today's

Mirror

Daybreak

Reverence

Night's

Severance

Morning

Glory

Sunshine

Story

Mine

Penned

Now....

Then

Dawn's
Reprise
Whispered
Rise

By the Boulders

I am a part of a family
They live deep in the central part of me
We grew exploring the same world
Through the visions and values of a kindred soul
Each envibing his wisdom borne of wandering
Into our own deeply developing inner ponderings

And when we came together
By the boulders, in the steamy summer weather
Little did we know we were returning
To our central core....our lifetime learning
Was reactivated as we sang the same songs in harmony
His death led us to the rebirth of our soul family

I am a part of a beautiful family
We are strewn across the country
We meet in moments to honor our mentor
And in those days,
the cloud is lifted...there is no haze
There is the sound of souls singing
The sounds of our innocence steeped with our own
wisdom, now
Melded with the visions and values of the man
who led us back around
To ourselves, to each other, we thank this man
For gifting us our peaceful, connected clan

Reunion

 

 

Fire built with voracity

Vigor, intrigue

Deep inside her soul you dig

Down to the depths calling out for touch

But there seems to be a limit

When does it become too much

 

Too much work

Too much effort

Too much time it takes

The intrigue dies

The fire smolders

The flames burn out

 

What was once a romance

Becomes a deep friendship

A partnership

A daily dance where no one touches......

anymore

 

Untouchable she would say she has become

The lonely builds, as she is longing for

the fire

 

Revive her

Touch her

Taste her lips on yours

as the kindling

to set the fire free again

 

A woman wants to be wanted

She needs the reassurance....

the release of romance

She desires it

Needs it

Craves it

 

She has always been touchable

 

Return to her valleys

Get lost in the softness of her curves

And you shall be found, again

Let her love you, fully

Travel her soul

Trace her face

Touch her

Honor her

 

Slay the lonely

Let it burn away ...

Your fingers warm her as the flames

of the fire

dance

You and she, melded in the shadows

cast

Romantic reunion

at long last

 

 

I am breathing....

 

 

 

If I never existed

Never was sparked as the zygote

Never took a first life affirming breath

I would still breathe.....you

We would still love

Even if I never existed

 

A love of proportions.....epic

Knows no boundaries

No time gets in the way

Distances we deny

 

We would love this deeply

This truly, this organically

Even if it were not my hand in yours

Even if we had not touched

Even if we had never met on the corner

of hope and healing

 

 So, my love.....

Even in those moments when you doubt

Or you long for my hand in yours

Remember, I do exist

And I am breathing.....you

Ode to My Days with Dan

Half Mountain

 

Wind still
Window sill
Frost forming
Marigolds mourning

Green grass growing
She shines, showing
her honey hair
Falling free, fair

Precious poetry penned.....past
Liaisons lovely, leaving.....Last
lines linger long.....lazy 
Her heart, humbled....hazy

Sober saints.... sinners...... sacred synergy
Cares, concerns collected....cantankerous cacophony
Silenced, still..... so slowly sailing
away, awake, alive...alleviated ailing

Wind still
Window sill
Memories mingling
Souls singing

slippery slope

 

 

 

Treacherous downhill ride

You seek the slip and slide

Plummeting down the slippery slope

Shot out of the cannon of hope

Hold on, baby, here comes the edge

You may as well be jumping off a ledge

Slope.....slippery and so slick

All this frozen emotion makin' me sick

You seek the thrill of adrenaline

Just about the time I need to go still again

It's cool, we roll in ways dissimilar

We are who we are, ain't nothin criminal

I'll be here, deep in the black darkness of meditation

You'll be high in the white starkness of elevation
Soon to sing dirges to our love's death
Yet, it hangs suspended... flash frozen as winter's breath
 

Perhaps one day, we will meet in the elusive middle

We may, one day, solve our life long riddle

 

What do you get when you blend a thrill seeker

With a tree huggin' peace keeper?

A slippery slope

And..... frozen hope

You, in your perpetual downhill race

Me, in meditation......... resting in place

 

 

 

 

Spoken

Talk dirty to me
Take me down the dirt roads of love and life
Let's get dirty, baby

Talk tender to me
Take me up into your arms....elevate me
Let's be tender, darling

Talk your intentions in my ear.... whisper them
Take me deep inside myself before you enter me
Let's go deep, lover

Talk in tongues to me
Trace me.....tantalize me, tempt me, taste me
Let's taste our love, sweetheart

Speak your love to me in all ways
and I shall tell you, too
Let's be our own language,love

Unspoken

 

 

Tell me you love me.....unspoken

I need to know me...unbroken

Words get in the way when we

Make it harder than it has to be

Why the allure of temptations and turmoil?

Waiting for the worst as our tempers boil

over

 

Spilling, spilling, burning us

Scalding the hovering hope of sacred trust

We were never able to manifest

The way we now live is ludicrous

 

So, today I speak the words until now....

Unspoken

I am moving on, to find me, whole...unbroken

 To the river where I spread my arms, so tight

They've been land laden for too long..... Good night

To you, time tortured soul

May you heal your desire to attempt to control

The flow of life and the river it has become

I'll captain my canoe on this river... flowing to the sun

And you shall stay tangled in the rushes

In the quiet of my journey, my fear hushes

and I know, another will come along to save you

Because I sailed away creating this final gift I gave you.....

 

The space to let another enter

May you heal outward from your center

and find yourself in the flow of this life

Cut loose the rushes with your jagged edged knife

I shall  discover the one who shares their love fully....

Unspoken

We will just know, as I shed the cloak and

dagger espionage power play

I am off to navigate the rivers of each fine day 

 

Feathers Floating....for Dan

Met my truth in the depths of my blog
In the length of the lines and the spaces between
In my memory's sequels and prequels
In the time spent with the blazer of my
heart's trail
In the meld of the moments with my mentor

He taught me that going forward is turning round
He taught me to reach for life on higher ground
He taught me to be me in the magic of every moment
He taught me my soul and how to poem it

In this moment frozen in time
Singing.... the rhythm of frozen rhyme
I am humbled beyond mere words
For the one who flew away with the birds
And sent his feathers floating from the skies
To gently trace my face, drying the tears I've cried

Met my truth in the depths of my blog
In the length of the lines and the spaces between
In my memory's sequels and prequels
In the time spent with the blazer of my
heart's trail
In the meld of the moments with my mentor