the same deep dream



"and I, at sunrise"

Waking to the
breaking
dawn
of a day I knew would one day
come
And here, it is, this day's
sun
Rising whether I am prepared
or not
In all the remembering I never
forgot
That this excursion was always
about Dan
And, with the gentle guidance of
this gentle man
I morphed into the reality of  me
My inner truth rose in synergy
with his
Today my heart drips bittersweet
bliss
As I turn to offer this blog a
goodbye kiss
From grateful lips presenting younger
And a soul, wiser, freed of its deep
hunger
All because a music man
Allowed his purpose...his lifetime plan
To sing and write and travel the land
Often times with empty hands
And a heart longing to belong
To someone on the roads he walked along

A true friend of his told me once
"Dan did not do human well"
I understood the words, I know he was under
a spell
Cast upon all of us who wish to love in ways so pure
We often need to find an outlet to reassure
ourselves that we can live here on this planet
bright
As we, armed with this pure love..... enter the fight
To keep the planet perpetually spinning
Unsure why it is so important to always be winning
When the goal.....
we know
Is to live in the spaces between the illuminating white
and the peace of the veil of  the darkest night
If you seek me
You shall find me
(where you also shall find yourself)
Blooming in the spaces between
For we are all players in the same deep dream

Lavender and Peppermint

Mysterious.....

Entering the space, altering it just

enough to be palpable

The invisible omnipotent air

hung ever so slightly....heavier

Yet lightly painted now with the comfort

of lavender

and the spark of

peppermint

married with the top note 

of  insatiable intrigue

 

The finish.... the long ago labored linger of love

Love anew, love long living

Love passed on

Love, aromatic....mysterious

Synapses and Relapses

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Happiness
Sadness
how 
separate
really?

In an instant the feelings
cascade
and flow
shape shifting
from peace
to perplexed
and back
again

Allow the waterfall
of feelings
honor them
play with them
process them
let them be finger
painted across the pages
of your life
now
or they will surely
return
as dirges sung by your 
soul
at some unannounced
place on your path 

They shall become
a specter in the night to fear
until you reset the cycle
Befriend your feelings
release any future fear
now

Honor what you feel when you
feel it
Honor the process
of chemical
receptors receiving 
neurons firing...
synapses and relapses
in constant flux and fevered flow

The brain and the body 
know no calendar
pages
Honor it all
as it throws down upon you
Own the fear, the failures, the joy
and the elusive energy of white hot ecstasy

Synapses and relapses
I take you as a road companion
a co-pilot
living, lurking in the limbic system
of my life
Let me finger paint
your colors
boldly
across the canvas
blank now...
awaiting your next sitting

Happy
Sad
how
different
really?

Faces

The faces of our soul
Countless personas we present
Runnin so we don't get old
Holding on to the times we resent

Faces happy, faces sad
Gorgeous, frightening or grim
In shadows or masks they are clad
Hiding ourselves in limited lighting dim

The face we share will indicate our truth
in a situation with a foe, lover or friend
I sometimes feel like a sultry sleuth
Attempting to offer love but afraid to offend

The face of fear I shed so long ago
Why now, does its gaze reflect in my mirror
It gets cloudy and cold and  I miss you so
Longing for and wanting you here, near

I just want you near
I once again shed my fear
Daily if needed
Loneliness the only thing we have cheated
And a love like ours is never defeated
It grows and guides, sustains and nourishes
and in the spaces we create it flourishes
<3

Haunts of the Past

Does the past come creeping into your thoughts and tie your belly into knots?
What has so much power, still.....that it cripples you in your steps...instantly?
Has there been a moment of clarity when you had a brief glimpse of the truth....
Perhaps this person, place or thing  that owns your power is not even aware of it!

You gave your power away in a pretty package, all wrapped up as an unwanted gift and presented fully to the one you fear, and they have no idea they walk around with what is rightfully yours!
What do you do????

RECLAIM your power, visualize yourself with this person or event and TAKE BACK WHAT IS YOURS!
Then, the other person no longer carries the weight of your energy that was forced upon them, and you become more whole, instantly!

Off with you into meditation, and reclaim those parts of yourself you gave away. Do this as many times as you need to, in as many meditative situations as you need to.  No one else can do this for you...be brave, be assertive, be aggressive if it is called for!  GO........Go......NOW!