By the Boulders

I am a part of a family
They live deep in the central part of me
We grew exploring the same world
Through the visions and values of a kindred soul
Each envibing his wisdom borne of wandering
Into our own deeply developing inner ponderings

And when we came together
By the boulders, in the steamy summer weather
Little did we know we were returning
To our central core....our lifetime learning
Was reactivated as we sang the same songs in harmony
His death led us to the rebirth of our soul family

I am a part of a beautiful family
We are strewn across the country
We meet in moments to honor our mentor
And in those days,
the cloud is lifted...there is no haze
There is the sound of souls singing
The sounds of our innocence steeped with our own
wisdom, now
Melded with the visions and values of the man
who led us back around
To ourselves, to each other, we thank this man
For gifting us our peaceful, connected clan

Feathers Floating....for Dan

Met my truth in the depths of my blog
In the length of the lines and the spaces between
In my memory's sequels and prequels
In the time spent with the blazer of my
heart's trail
In the meld of the moments with my mentor

He taught me that going forward is turning round
He taught me to reach for life on higher ground
He taught me to be me in the magic of every moment
He taught me my soul and how to poem it

In this moment frozen in time
Singing.... the rhythm of frozen rhyme
I am humbled beyond mere words
For the one who flew away with the birds
And sent his feathers floating from the skies
To gently trace my face, drying the tears I've cried

Met my truth in the depths of my blog
In the length of the lines and the spaces between
In my memory's sequels and prequels
In the time spent with the blazer of my
heart's trail
In the meld of the moments with my mentor

New Season

You.... the snow that cries rain
I..... the rain that becomes snow
I find myself covered in drifts of pain
And you, always know
Together we cry our salted tears
You for me....I, for you
We shed the aches we have held for years
They fly off into space, and we are renewed
As the darkened skies above us clear
The tears are burned away in the bathe of the sun
The rain moves on, the snow disappears
A new season of us has begun

Words in the Way

My tongue is tired
Too many words
getting
stuck and
then
misconstrued
An empty space is
safe
We need not fill every
moment
with
words or worries
We let the peace of
silence
guide us to
the words should they
be discovered
Should they become
necessary

Empty space
Recalling the trace
of your finessed 
fingers
upon
my
grateful, still life 
face
Silent love
We had risen above
words
Why do they get
in the way
now?

Singing My Solo

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I laughed until I cried

I sang until the song died

I was singing my solo..... suddenly

No one standing beside me

 

I asked for this, remember

As the awareness of mid November

Blew across my ageless face

Once aglow in blended gratitude

and grace

 

Traveling away from my imposed shell

Once again it is time, I may as well

Move forward on the presented path

I've been washed clean in the sacred

soul bath

Of being where I was sposed to be

For the now yellow-edged years

trailed out there

behind me

 

Time to step out into the snow outside 

my

window pane

Not so long ago, the window knew the

touch of rain

As do my cheeks right now, tender tears

The reflections of all the memories birthed

in all those years

They trail my aging face

Leaving their tracks, their trace

 

In their reflections...I realized.....I was

rejoicing in

the fact

that:

 

I laughed until I cried

I sang until the song died

I was singing..... alone suddenly

No one standing beside me

Sun and Rain

same joy...
different day
same person
different way

same passion
living in a new space
same intention
birthed from a new place

same connection
now will never be then
lives lived in parallel reality
I am seeing you again

seeing you as the deepest friend
of deep proportion
one who knows me true and well
our hearts know no distortion

there is indeed love here
born in the womb of joy and pain
witnessing the world's changing weather
honoring our sun and our rain

Inner Space

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Empty
is, in reality... full
of possibilities
All that is empty
is beautiful space for opportunity
to be birthed
Let us be empty

Full
is the absence of space
the absence of allowance of more
I choose to be a space
of creation
A space full of the gifts
of not yet knowing
what is to come
I release the fullness

Labels...I need them not
I am who I am
I am who I am becoming
in the emptiness
of my inner space
and the fullness of
my inner love....

Emerging
as I spill out and run over
Looking for beautiful empty opportunities
to fill

Family.....

Family by choice

Hearts found in the vibe of verse

Heart beats syncing to the cadence of our mentor's

Lives lived connected

Peace shared openly

We stumble

We are picked up

It is our family crest

Love, respect, unconditional acceptance

Allow it

Be healed in the family

Your soul is familiar to me

We are a soul family

We are family

by choice and through dimensions

My life melds with yours

in the smiles

the triumphs

the pain

and the tears as down they rain

washing us

clean

No One Pretended

Hey, fellow humans
We ain't dead, we are still here
Let's say we begin with some positive choices
so we can peacefully persevere

We didn't die and I'll tell ya why
Cuz we've got messes to clean up.. friends
We've got a planet to reforest and restore
And all the planet's life to support and mend

We've got people with no food to eat
and people who have nothing... no hope inside
Battling to live against people who have it all
We won't make it till we kill our senseless pride

Let us strangle the battle between us.... kill it off dead
Then we can live in harmony as it was always intended
We'll leave a legacy for those that follow
We cared about each other fully.... no one pretended

Cuz in the end, when it shows up for each of us
All we'll see is the life we chose... the life we actually lived
At the end of my life here...I'd like to know I honored others
I'll know I allowed myself to take and I allowed others to give

Give to me
                      I thank you
by giving back
                                       It's that simple, people

Let's do this thing and go home.......

thoughts....

Re-connections, restorations, remembered
forgotten

Together, too painful, too many memories
replayed

Now, then, when
why

Doubt, gratitude, restraint
waiting

Wanting, craving, hoping
allowing

Tears, tales, tortures
relived

Me, here, in it
wondering

Knowing, processing, emoting
flying

me, here, in it

Honor the Tears

Honor the tears as they wash away

the pain

Honor the tears as their tracks

line your face

Honor the tears of joy

as healing raindrops

Honor the tears that flood 

and fill your eyes

Honor the tears that bring the moist

realization in a dry life

Honor the tears that hit so hard they sting

Allow the awareness they bring 

Be the tears as they fall and move on

Be the joy that lies under them

Let the flood bring new life

Let the realization teach you

Honor the tears

You earned them, after all

Same Old Love Tribe

Met my old love tribe

in the park that day

We are again connected, refortified

This is how we choose to stay

We drummed our way fully forward

from a distant healed past

The reconnection our reward

 Joined in vibration again, at last

Earth Brother calling in the spirits of air

The Huntress releasing her pain

We all became collectively aware

As the sky got dark but held its rain

We held hands and awakened our hearts

Joined so deeply in this space

Downloading the memories as guiding charts

To recall when we lose our place

We return to the drumming, the vibe

 If we ever find ourselves by fear consumed

We feel the rhythm and hear the rhyme

 Celebrating the revived past life we exhumed

In to Rain

 For Cindy....

Dan brought the family song for you today, dear one. When this comes on now, I think of all of you, my DanFam. I am too full of emotion for you to be very prolific I think, but let's see how it goes....

My heart aches right now, knowing the profound place your family finds yourself in. The sadness, the reality, the bittersweet peace of being able to be there at the end. Sigh....

Memories of these times in my life flood back and from someplace within me, I am led to tell you this:

Cherish the time

Hold on real tight

Hold hands

Kiss foreheads

Cry, as Dan told us, tears are "memories mirrors"

Recall

And when the perfect moment presents.....laugh

Let the laugh echo out  widely and be felt far out into the cosmos

And always, always, always know you are loved and supported and held closely.
<3

Lineage of the Soul

Led to a place only known to our souls

at first

We traveled from all corners to heal

a thirst

For closure, truth and something 

deeply real

A place called Peoria was our final

destination

To allow the boulder's and the pine's

restoration

As we cried blended tears... 

yours and mine

The I and the me became

us

As we realized we could truly

trust

These souls brought to the river's shore

where the raptors soar

We soar now as well

in unison

On the currents that lead us back

to our family reunion

Souls knowing so much gain  

There is nothing that we lack

The lineage of the soul is alive and well

 and in this truth we now dwell

Souls no longer alone

A family birthed at the river by the stones

<3 

A Toast to the Rain.....

Wash me, rain

Wash me free of myself

Wash me away from my fears

Wash me anew to that which you bring me

peaceful, calm honoring

Let your drops hit my face

Let the growth come

Let the connection be birthed

Let me accept this gift

 My desire becomes hot, heavy steam

as you quench my deeply seated, resurrected passion

one drop at a time

opening me, freeing me, re-establishing my balance

Not knowing I was lost

his subtle bravery woke me 

Shaking me from my self deprived slumber

and, in one magical moment

I was found

Found to myself

Found to him

 future unknown, yet cherished completely

<3
I offer a toast to you, rain

and I drink greedily of your wisdom

as you wash me clean

Melded Emotions Manifested

Yesterday I had a day of deep funk and depression, deeper than I have experienced for a very, very long time.

Once I realized the funk was upon me, I knew I needed as much peace and stillness as I could find in the day, and it was gifted to me.

I tried to find a reason for the lack of connection I felt, or was I feeling connected to too many things, or people, or the past......I don't know. I only knew I felt nothing and everything all at the same time. It was a gray day. These emotions melded manifested madly into a deep well where I allowed myself to hide.

This song is a melding of many emotions, and Dan so expertly shows them all to us in a matter of minutes. Today I honor the talent he had for expressing himself so profoundly in subtle and direct ways. I marvel at the gift he gave us all, and I will continue to marvel over and over and over again as it is revealed to me.